A Secret Gay Passion - Black, Julian

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Résumé :
A Secret Gay Passion is a very powerful and erotic short story about two young men. Nicky is a closet homosexual and is petrified to come out as gay to those closest to him. Richard is an openly gay man who instantly falls in love with Nicky and becomes his saviour and soul mate. This is a book for anybody who has ever overcome obstacles, been in love, felt instant chemistry, felt passion, and believes in soul mates and instant love. It is for anyone who has overcome fear, believes in hope, and most of all loves happy endings. It is a short story that will forever remain in your heart.

Biographie:
I grew up in a very small town and working class family where every penny counted and money was tight. Fear has been within me since a small child and it grew and grew within me as I got older and even into adulthood. I knew the taste of fear and the smell of fear on an every day basis. As soon as I opened my eyes in the morning fear was there and it was there as I went to bed at night I was shrouded in fear. I was petrified of planet earth and the people in it. I had nothing in common with planet earth and I became Isolated. I was a complete loner and I had absolutely nobody I could talk to or relate to about my problems. I was walking anxiety and petrified of every day. I knew I needed help when on more than one occasion I would leave my house only to find that my body would freeze up and my legs turning to jelly and I would become a walking anxiety attack. I spent many years in and out of therapy and through therapy I got to understand myself and my fear's. It was all down to painfully low confidence, self esteem and self worth and my fears of my sexuality. I thought nothing of myself so why should anybody else and I was psychologically bullied and laughed at even into my adult life. I did not live like other people and I was painfully shy and very reserved and Inside myself I was screaming for help. I can only thank god for my creative abilities which I was born with to tell and share unusual stories. They say write what you know and put yourself into your characters which I have done and it has helped me to the point of keeping me sane and maybe even alive. Fear is a huge part of my characters and I have put them in fearful situations simply because I fully understand what driven fear can do to the human mind and body over many years.